Ask For Help Already!

This post that I'm posting today is dedicated to Chris @vtknitboy.. I know I haven't blogged in a while because I didn't have anything to blog about..

Well last night I was tweeting Chis and he really inspired me to pick up my Every Way Wrap by Okmin Parks.. I have been working on this shawl since May 2010.. Yes I said it and the only reason it took so long was because I had to continually frog!! (and for all you none knitters, frog means to unravel or unknit the pattern) after 2 weeks I did some research because I was getting upset that the pattern wasn't looking like the pattern in the magazine.. That's when I found out that the pattern was incorrect! The incorrect part was the reversal cable.. Thank God I took the time to research because I was dedicated to this pattern.. Then after knitting for so long, guess what?! I packed it away and completed two cupcake hats and a scarf that I still still yet to finish.. I also started a sock. Finish one and is half way threw the second sock.. That's called sock syndrome.. So now I have to learn a new technique for my next sock that I'm going to make to support the cause of LUPUS! It's a tweeted purple sock yarn. The technique is called the magic loop.. I will be using YouTube to practice on some old yarn until I get it down packed and make two socks at once..

So thanks again Chris @vtknitboy
Yes I'll post pictures when I'm half way threw.. Which I'm already half way threw so 3/4th's threw!

Are you VAIN or SHALLOW??

Ok I have a huge, huge, huge confession.. I am VAIN and sometimes SHALLOW.. Ok since having found out that I have Lupus and Sjogren's Syndrom, my body has gone threw many changes. I contantly have breakout and up and down weight from the medication and the flares! Whew some days I can't get out the bed because I be extremly tired or body pains including my spine and those migraines are horriable too. So when I gain weight I have to wear spandex, sweat pants or yoga pants lol... but the kicker is when I have a horrible break out I hide in the house! Yes I said it! I hide in the house or if I have to go out I wear a hoodie to cover my face or some of the hugest shades I could find.. I mean it's not like I don't take care of my skin! I tired Proactive, Ambi, scrubs, etc.. and nothing helped.. So the doctor has given me two types of cream to use twice a day so we are going to see how this is going to work..

I also had to go all natural with my hair because with a perm my hair was falling out in chuncks so I let the perm go and get weaves.. Long ones, wavy ones and curly ones.. Next is a short hair style weave..

Now I've been the type of girl and women that I never cared what anyone thought about me. I would wear sweatpants and sneakers and would feel confident but these days my confidence level had dropped.. Now I'm constintly washing my face and trying creams, eating lots of veggies and fruits to stay slim.

This medication I'm taking called Lyrica is making me gain weight and have hands swollen so I cant wear my wedding band and my feet so swollen and my toes looks like little sasuages, LOL... I stopped taking the medicine and all the nerve pains and problems came back. I wasn't able to hold the kool-aid jug without my hand shaking so I decided to start taking the medicine so I can have somewhat of a normal life..

So now my main focuse is to get healthier and maintain my weight.. So if you feel like you are Vain or Shallow please comment and let me know how your handling it..

20 Things to say to an I'll person...

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20 Things to Say to an I'll Person

Things TO SAY to an ill person #1 I don’t know what to say, but I care about you
Things TO SAY to an ill person #2 I’m going to the grocery, what can I get you?
Things TO SAY to an ill person #3 Do you just need to vent? I’m all ears!
Things TO SAY to an ill person #4 If you need a good cry, I’ve got plenty of tissues and a shoulder
Things TO SAY to an ill person #5 I really admire how you are handling this. I know its difficult.
Things TO SAY to an ill person #6 I’m bringing dinner Thursday. Do you want lasagna or chicken?
Things TO SAY to an ill person #7 Can I get your kids 4 a playdate? My kids R bored. 
Things TO SAY to an ill person #8 I cant sit still. Got any laundry I can fold?
Things TO SAY to an ill person #9 What can I pray 4 you about that no one else is praying 4?
Things TO SAY to an ill person #10 Can I bring a few friends over 2 clean your house fast?
Things TO SAY to an ill person #11 I don’t have any idea what U R feeling, but I will always listen
Things TO SAY to an ill person #12 I saw these flowers & thought they’d cheer you 2day 
Things TO SAY to an ill person #13 How can our church encourage those with chronic illness?
Things TO SAY to an ill person #14 Tell me what it is really like to be you for a day
Things TO SAY to an ill person #15 I made too much dinner for our family. Can I bring U some?
Things TO SAY to an ill person #16 U R amazing. How has your illness given you appreciation 4 life?
Things TO SAY to an ill person #17 Do U want me 2 come over while U wait 4 test results?
Things TO SAY to an ill person #18 U listen 2 me better than any other friend. Thanks
Things TO SAY to an ill person #19 I have Monday free if you need me 2 run some errands or take you
Things TO SAY to an ill person #20 – Tell me about this God who gets U thru 1 more day?




XoXo,


Nicole :-)

Trying new things

Hey you guys..

Since the summer has started I've been trying a lot of new things.. Well more like being the real me. Since becoming a mother and wife I thought I had to fit the perfect role, you know the Steferd Wives! Lol.. Don't laugh at me, I'm just being honest.. Not trying to follow or fit that roll I've become very unhappy with myself and my life. So I decide I was going to do what makes me happy.. With limits of course..

So first thing I brought was a red dress! I took the dress back because it didn't fit well. My size large was extremely to short! SHORT.. So I changed it for an X-Large and it was to wide.. So I totally gave up on that notion. But I also took the plug and painted my nails RED!! Yes red, I haven't found the red lip stick yet but I will..

So I also went shopping for a few summer outfit and instead of jeans shorts and denmin carpi's I got demin spandex! Black and blue and then to top it off I purchased bright shirts and sandals.. I gotten a few bright color sun dresses. The bright blue, like the ocean water. Multicolor ones and they are low cut for some booby action or strapless. Then I purchased my smell goods. Perfume! Mariah has a nice one, Tommy girl true star is nice. Victoria secret has two body mist I love.. I wear it everyday. It's by Pink and one smell is soft and dreamy and the other is warm and cozy with glitter inside. Yesterday I brought a shimmering moisture mist by Calgon called Angelic Kiss and I paid $6 and it smells so so good.. Can't wait to try it on. I know some people feels that glitter is for young kids but I'm a young kid at heart.. And I'm learning to do what I like and want.

I started doing my nails in the fun colors I always l loved, instead of French tip. There's nothing wrong with French tip but it's not for me! Only for a special occasion. I want to wear my hot pinks and bright blues, exp.. Today I tried the Sally Henson nail polish tape and its cool so far. I have the gold glitter on my hands and toes.. I finally found some navy blue eye liner. Can't wait to wear that.. The other day I had on my lavender strapless dress and out purple eye liner.. So so beautiful.. I also have green, can't wait to wear that one too.. But today I'm going to spray my gold glitter body spray with my gold nails and put on my short shorts I got free from old navy and a black tank top and my black flip flop and trail along with my husband while he walk proud with me on his side... Not because I look good, it's because I feel good and that the person he feel in love with...

Back to the old Nicole which is the new me!!

Later my loves

Xoxo
Nicole

My Anniversay 7/13/2002 - 7/13/2011

9 years ago I married a man I was so in love with… I was 24 years old and he was 25 years old.. Before we were married all we kept hearing was we was too young to get married and we didn’t know what we were getting ourselves into, but to be honest! We didn’t care, and had no clue about what marriage was all about! We just thought being in love was all we needed… Oh boy was we wrong! LOL Speaking from my truth and heart, I just knew I didn’t and couldn’t see myself living without this man.. He said all the things I never heard from a guy, boyfriend or any male in my life and that I was the most beautiful girl he had ever meet  (meaning that I was so loving, understand and have a great sprit) and he showed me in many ways. He would pull the car over on the highway and dance with me, dedicate songs to explain how he felt (only because he didn’t know how express them out in his own word and always gave me flowers), He’s a protector and boy did he and still do protect me..

Now during our 9 year of marriage wasn’t easy because we all know the flesh is never satisfied! We both dealt  with distrustfulness, dishonesty, unfaithfulness, etc and threw it all we was still in love and still wanted to be with each other so we fought for our marriage by talking to family, friends and anyone else to help us thru these tough times.  But we never went to the main person who could, knew and totally understood what we was going thru and needed to survive and that’s GOD!!

Once we started counseling threw a church and I started to pray for my husband and fast for our marriage things started to get better. We started to talk more to get a better understanding of who we were as individual persons and not as his wife and her husband and the parent of our two beautiful children. I’m not saying that there wasn’t times that I did not like my husband and his ways but I always loved him. So that plate that we was holding with distrust, dishonesty, unfaithfulness, lies, misunderstanding, selfishness, jealousy, etc.. We broke and burned that plate!!!!

We picked up a new beautiful plate with God in the center! With trust, honesty, faithfulness, love, understanding, etc.. But the devil would always pop his nosey head in some way form or fashion.. Because, like I said the flesh is never satisfied. So we also picked a beautiful umbrella that protects our flesh from the sun showers of lush, rainstorms of no trust, thunder storms of unfaithfulness and even the fire balls of hate!!

So on that note I want to say Happy 9 year Anniversary to my wonderful husband Ed… Love you very much and I’m blessed to have you in my life!!!

Thanks for reading my story and I’m signing out

XOXO

Nicole ;-)

Home Made Iced Coffee

OK with my cut downs in my life with me working on my credit and working on buying a house I've made a whole lot of changes.. One of my changes I made is to cut my coffee purchases outside.. DD and SB are very expensive and I have to be smart and savy shopper. So my husband brought me new coffee maker that I'm learning to use... I've been learning how to make the perfect iced coffee! Haven't come out perfect but I'm very close.. Guess I'll see tomorrow.. =)

Step 1: Brew your pot of ,coffee as normal but if you want iced coffee I would say put a tablespoon and a half to two tablespoons per ever cup of coffee, dark roaster ground coffee helps with the taste. Just to have that strong coffee taste, because the ice will water it down. Also add sugar, sugar subsitute or sweet milk to taste because as you know sugar don't melt in cool or cold coffee or anything cold.

Step 2: Storage.. I use the Chinese restaurant large soup bowl and let it sit in the refrigerator to cool off, mainly the night before.. or left over coffee works well too.

Step 3: Fill a glass with ice and pour the cold or chilled coffee into your cup or glass.

Step 4: Add your milk.. I prefer 2% milk or fat free milk you can also find flavored syrups,  vanilla, mocha or chocolate to give it a little flavor or kick..

*****NEVER PUT A HOT COFFEE POT IN THE REFRIGERATOR BECAUSE IT CAN BREAK THE GLASS*****

SO there you have it.. Now let's start making the perect iced coffee...  =)


(((((HUGS))))

Nicole =)

Just want to vent...

Friday was my god daughters 2nd birthday party and I danced the night away.. Now as you women/men know that having Lupus, etc.. Or muiltiply Connection tissue disoreders like I do... My body was hurting to bad and that I had to totally rest the next day. Knees was hurting when I walked, My back was in pain, pain, pain and my feet was red and swollen..I took all my medication just to help me relax and claim down..

Now the part that bothered me the most was that when I went to sit down someone came over to me and asked why I WASN'T DANCING ANYMORE! I told them my back, feet and knees were hurting.. they called me old???? Huh!! I'm I old?? I take very care of myself and I look way way better then most of these girls/women.. I told her I have Lupus and she said that don't mean anything because she has a friend that has lupus and she party every friday and never take her medication. (Not a smart thing to do) I know I'm not going to stop taking my medicaition...

Yes I'm still learning to keep my mouth shut about my muiltiply illnesses because people wont understand that I'm sick on the insideand not the outsid!!!